The One with the Interference

Dear Readers,

"Mama said there'll be days like this..."

I am angry. I wanted to call this "The One with the Rage" but I will save that title for another day. I feel there are more of these days to come.

Last night I got yelled at by a lot of people. I can't share all the gory details with you because that is not really my information to tell. Have you ever been in a situation where your friends are trying to do right by you but they just end up upsetting you? I have. It is not just friends, some people get involved in my business who have nothing to do with the situation. I am just tired of it.

Half of my problems are created because I care way too much about what people will think. Why should I care? I don't know but I do. I think that can be a good quality though. I take other people's feelings into account. And those who know me think I talk about absolutely everything I am feeling but I don't always share all of the information. Well, I can't keep going. Otherwise, I will just be ranting for hours and no one wants to read that.

But I am just wondering...where is the line between helping a friend and hurting them?

-Katie Starlet

The One with Disappointment

Dear Readers,

I don't want to broadcast too much to the world because a few people actually read this. Anyway I am so disappointed in myself today. Do you ever have days like that? I did terribly on a final and I have to retake a class. I would say "I don't want to talk about it," but clearly I am talking about it here.

What disappoints me the most is the fact that there were some classes I missed because I simply slept through my alarm. I just feel dumb when stuff like that happens. I mean that was something I could easily have avoided. Arrggghh!

And I am not stupid which is what upsets me the most. I am intelligent and I actually like school. I love learning, I love discussions in classes, and especially new school supplies. Professors don't typically scare me and I get along with my peers. I think all of these qualities are beneficial but unfortunately they don't grade you based on personality.

So today, I am sorry to report I have no good advice and I don't really have much pep to my step. I am sure my day will improve though. I get to spend time with friends tonight. There is always next year to improve right?

-Katie Starlet

The One with all the Wishes

Dear Readers,

Hello. It is a beautiful day outside and I am feeling very optimistic about my life. I love days like these.

I had lunch with my Dad today. We have a nice relationship. I don't know how it came up but it got me thinking about wishes. My parents have been married for almost 25 years and I am so fortunate that I have had them all of my life. I have never had to question what is most important to them in my life; I already know it is my brother and I.

I started thinking about wishes. I have a pile of wishes. Typically I wish for the same types of things and usually they are somewhat attainable. I feel they are realistic goals but I will need a little bit of luck to reach them. Anyway I started thinking about the wishes other people have. I feel it would be a very intimate thing to hear everyone else's wishes.

I imagine some people, like my parents, would wish for my brother and I to have extremely happy and fulfilling lives. That is selfless and thoughtful, just like my parents are. I think some people probably dream of owning a home, or traveling, or even just for a meal. Just an interesting thought I had. And if I can, I hope to help make other people's wishes come true.

So tell me, what are the things you wish for most in life?

-Katie Starlet

The One with the Papers

Dear Readers,

I feel slightly better after a night of fitful sleep. I have spent most of the day and night working on my papers which are due very soon. I did not want to forget to write to you today. I do not enjoy writing papers which is amusing because I have to constantly write for my major.

However, I find that the more papers I write the better I get. This may seem like an obvious statement but I think it speaks to an even bigger theme, whatever we do in life, the more experience we have, the better we will be. I do care about the grades I get on these papers but I care more that they are exemplary of my skills as a writer. I will let you know how it goes.

Ponder this, what have you gained experience in and how does that make you special?

-Katie Starlet

The One with Big Decisions

Dear Readers,

Decisions. They are a crucial part of everyone's life. Based on certain decisions we make, we either end up married or raising children or in college, we can be sober, abstinent, rich or poor, sad or lonely, happy, and decided whether we live a fulfilling life or not. Some decisions are small, like what kind of ice cream should I eat, chocolate or vanilla? Others are much bigger, Should I raise this baby or put it up for adoption?

I have some big decisions coming up. And I don't know what to do. I know this is not something that any of you can answer and honestly, I am not at liberty to post the particular situations I am debating. I just know that sometimes, no matter what people choose, someone gets hurt. I also know that our decisions affect other people even if we don't plan it that way.

And during all of this decision-making, I still have finals. I am currently preparing for an all-nighter. Today, my question to myself is, how do I get in these messes? And how can I ever get out?

-Katie Starlet

The One with the Best Parents

Dear Readers,

Hello. So last night my Dad dropped off my "finals package" from them [my Mom and Dad]. I should give you a disclaimer, I am a crier and I am very sentimental but this was a whole other level.

They gave me an adorable striped shirt that is nautical (my favorite style). Then, they gave me some of my favorite snack foods. I also got two things for my favorite (stuffed) puppy. He is now wearing flip flops, khakis, an argyle sweater, and glasses. He looks intellectual and ready for finals week. They got me a movie and some bubbles for a study break. And my favorite item was a book about Shakespeare. Not to mention, a wonderful card. Now if I am not the most fortunate daughter in the world I don't know who is.

I am sure to finish strong this week with support like that. But it makes me wonder, one day, will I be able to reflect the wonderful qualities my parents have demonstrated for me?

-Katie Starlet

The One Where We're Growing Up

Dear Readers,

Sorry about last night. I passed out! I had not slept in 48 hours! Also, since I tend to get distracted I don't really know the thought process I was going through last night and so I don't really know what else to say about yesterday. I will just continue with today's happenings.

Today, I helped my friends move into their very first home. It was just as exciting for me as it was for them. I appreciated the experience because someday a LONG time from now, I will move into my own home and I will need to know what to do. As the day progressed, many people, that I grew up, with came too and it was just so pleasant. We were able to sit and chat and the conversations were so different than what we used to talk about. We have progressed from driver's licenses and youth group to weddings, children, and careers. However, I did have everyone laughing at me. I was complaining about getting older but they are all slightly older than I am.

I loved the support everyone had for each other. I mean ten people showed up to help two people move in and start a new home together. It was so sweet. It just made me realize that I have so many friends who I truly believe would help me through those fun and exciting times in life.It is nice to know that I will have people who will love me and support me in my life. It gives me hope and a smile and I'm thankful.

And I wonder, am I a friend like that to others? Will I be there for the happy times in their life?

-Katie Starlet